Sometimes I get discouraged in my work. I feel like anyone could do my job because the majority of it only requires basic computer skills. There are many days when I wish I could be on the field hugging on kids, encouraging struggling single mothers and needy families, helping those hurting after a natural disaster...to show the love of Christ in practical ways, which is what AMG is all about (Advancing the Ministries of the Gospel). I have felt this way for a few months now and God has been trying to get it through my head that I am right where he wants me to be.
Every Wednesday morning at AMG we have a 30 minute chapel service. We pray for our ministry and usually a speaker will come and give us a short message. Almost every speaker will say, "Thank you for what you do," or "I really appreciate each one of you," or "Every single one of your play an important role," you know encouraging words. But, I didn't listen. I was guilty of believing the lie that my work isn't important. This Wednesday our speaker's message revolved around Psalm 8:4 which says, "what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?" That God would care for us enough to send his son Jesus to live among us to bring the world Salvation....who are we (man) that the creator of the Universe is mindful of us!
This got me thinking...the only way I ended up here at AMG is by the hand of God and so here I am complaining about it. I am Lame. I should be humbled that God would even want to use me to help the poor, orphans, and widows...that God is allowing me to help build His Kingdom. Yes, most of my day I sit at my desk on the phone, writing emails and letters, or entering information into a database BUT what I so easily forgot is that without someone taking care of these details almost 6,000 Children wouldn't have access to the basic human needs and the Gospel Message. "What is man that you are mindful of him..."
Something else happened that also put my head and heart back in the right place. Yesterday (the same day as Psalm 8:4 message) I received a phone call from a donor named Jill, a very sweet women of God. She sponsors a little girl named Barbara in Uganda whose mother recently passed away. Jill wanted to help out the family by finding sponsors for Barbara's siblings. After about five minutes into the conversation Jill told me that she has cancer and it is very aggressive. She has three children all under the age of 18 and she says that only by the hand of God will she survive. Jill told me she understood what Barbara and her family where going through because of her struggle with cancer. WOW. What a privilege for me to be apart of a relationship between someone in America with such compassion and love for a sweet little girl in Uganda. "What is man that you are mindful of him..."
I must ask forgiveness for being so small minded and believing the lies told to me by the world. All along God was trying to encourage me but I was stubborn. What a great God we serve, always patient with us in our stubbornness.
Psalm 8
O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory above the heavens.
For the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger.
When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?
You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor.
You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and hers, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas.
O Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!
